I’m taking Lithum now. Along with 3 other meds. I feel better if only slightly high. My friends agree that I’ve been a bit over the top in the past week or so and acting more “bubbly” than usual. This is ironic given that I’m taking a mood stabilizer. Maybe THIS is stabilization, given that my mood is always low. Maybe I finally feel good enough to do anything so i do it all at the same time.
I’ve been painting, exercising, reading, fixing and cleaning things, going outside to get stuff i need. Talking way too much and being funny (or so I think). I’m having some trouble sleeping though.
The psychiatrist that prescribed lithium said that if this treatment does not work he’ll have me go under ECT. I was scared but I’m not anymore. Anything to get out of the prison of depression. I don’t want to go back in there.