I lay on bed this time. It’s 3 am. I love laptops.
My sleep cycles are fucked up. I have been sleeping from 12 to 16 hours a day, and the few awaken hours don’t match those of normal people. But hey, I’ve become a much more prolific poster ever since stability left me. Haven’t I?
The glitch has happened again. My mind becomes the enemy, attacking me for no reason as I cry and cower and let it repeatedly beat me only wondering why is this happening to me? I don’t want to hurt the mind back, I just want to escape, be safe, until its abusive urges have calmed.
At the same time I’M my mind, the enemy, attacking her for no reason, a helpless girl cowering in the dark, letting me beat her senseless all while wondering Why I am so evil? Why can’t I stop?! and Defend yourself dammit!
I’m both. Seeing through both sides of consciousness at the same time, unable to stop it.
The glitch has ceased for now. How? That’s complicated.
I’ve merged again. I’m exhausted. Going back to sleep.