I finally went to the GP. He freaked out a little bit because I was too pale, and I got sent to the ER. Navigating the health services, even for urgent stuff… is it anything less than a nightmare ANYWHERE in the world?
I wrote a longer rant but I am over it and I just want to say that the pain got better after I got IV medication, and I was finally able to eat something and keep it down. The surgeon believes I had post-operative bleeding pressing against my liver. It’s not serious enough to require a special procedure, the blood will be reabsorbed by my body and I should be okay. I have an ultrasound on Monday to confirm this and make sure everything is fine.
I’m just very tired, and sad because I had some progress with my depression in terms of a regular sleep schedule and daily activities. All that went to hell in the past two weeks and I have to start over. I also lost about 5 pounds in 1 week. That is not necessarily bad.
Unluckily, while my body was down, a virus took advantage of it and I now have a cold. It’s annoying, but I can take annoying over horrible torture any day.
A lot of familiar symptoms are back, anxiety, low energy, bad dreams, no motivation, no hope, despair. I didn’t want them back but I feel too tired to fight them at the moment. I’m trying to ignore them, wait, and hope they leave.