Inspired by (snatched from) Pandora (thank you!)
Result: 66 (severe = 54+)
I try to answer these questionnaries as honestly as possible. Trying to tell myself not do be dramatic, to realize how my life is actually okay and there’s nothing wrong objectively speaking. I’m calm at the moment. It can’t be that bad. But then they ask me something like “It takes great effort for me to do simple things.” and it is an absolute yes. “I feel lifeless — more dead than alive.” Yes again. And so I kept on getting 4s and 5s until I realized the result wasn’t going to be good.
And I think kind of stupidly… do you mean normal people would only get 0 – 9 in this? Do you mean they don’t live with these thoughts and mind glitches all the time? Is this the people I’m trying to compete with out there in the world?
Result: 20 (very depressed, take action=20+)
I consider this a moderate result and looking at the possible answers, I know I’ve been way worse before.
3. Hamilton Depression Scale (adapted for self administration, it seems)
Result: 18 (moderate)
Result: 2 (it made me stop after question 4). Not Suicidal.
Result: 56 (Severe depression)
I know these questionnaries are not supposed to be self diagnostic tools but I found them extremely useful to give me a better idea of where I stand, knowing for sure that I’ve been worse. I’m on meds right now, but still sleeping too much and as useless as ever, but most of my answers to the test used to be worse.
Does this mean improvement? How much more can I expect? Ambitious much? Well, yes I am. I want this shit out of my brain.